Lily Disciplined I feel like Iâve been waiting my whole life for this. When I was younger, I just wanted to grow up. I only wanted to be around adults. To be around men. I knew there was something exciting going on and I was missing out. Iâm finally starting to understand. And I love it. If Iâve learned anything itâs that just being honest about how I feel and what Iâve done is the best way to get what I want. And really I donât feel any shame. The men of The Order want to have there way with me so I am going to enjoy it. President Oaks has asked to see me. I canât wait, heâs so sexy.